faith

Fear and Courage

Have you ever been really afraid?  I don’t mean startled or jittery after watching a scary movie.  I mean have you ever experienced bone-chilling, gut-wrenching fear?  I have.  Like the time I was in a Humvee driving down a road…
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The Man with the Plastic Mask

I am halfway done with my radiation treatments.  Yesterday afternoon I completed the sixth session, with six more to go.  They only administer radiation treatments on weekdays, so that means I won’t finish until next Thursday, December 19, and then…
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Why Suffering?

Why do bad things happen to good people?  It just doesn’t seem right, does it?  How can a loving God tolerate evil?  How can he sit by and watch the suffering of innocent people, children even?  I see this in…
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On the Road Again

In the air, actually.  Or, at least I was until I landed in Dallas a little while ago en route back to Houston.  This time, I’m returning for radiation, or more specifically, “proton therapy,” to my brain and spine.  Hopefully,…
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Never Quit

“A pinch and a burn.”  This is the warning right before my tormentor inserts the syringe of lidocaine into my lower back before starting the lumbar puncture.  It usually takes a few injections before the area is numb, but it’s…
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Master of Goodbyes

How many times must a man’s heart break before it will no longer heal?  At least once more, I hope. Practice makes perfect, they say, but there are some things in life a man does not want to become good…
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Why We Serve

When I was ten years old, I had a company’s worth (about 100) of GI Joe action figures.  I had taken over my Granny Blessing’s living room with a six-foot long toy aircraft carrier.  Her house was a frequent battleground…
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The Day I Didn’t Want to End

We got home from Texas late Thursday night after two days of driving.  What a blessing it was to walk in our house after being gone a month and a half.  Thanks to our wonderful neighbors, we even had groceries…
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First Things First

The first week of the second cycle of this clinical trial will be over tomorrow.  So far, so good.  I’ve faced the requisite nausea and depressed appetite, but overall there isn’t much to complain about.  My neutrophils are low again,…
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Lessons from the Playground

Sunday was the perfect Texas fall day.  The temperature was in the mid-seventies with low humidity and there was barely a cloud in the sky.  The nice weather and a growing case of cabin fever prompted us to take the…
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