faith

Looking for the Light

No joke there I was. Iraq. 2005. Anbar Province. The height of the Sunni insurgency. Infantry company commander, pistol on my side and knife in my pocket, on my way to…the chow hall. It was already dark that winter night…
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Living a Double Life

I am living a double life here in Houston.  One is fairly normal, not all that different from the “old me.”   The other life is the tumultuous existence of a cancer patient.  I don’t live either life independently from…
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I Missed the Bus but Found Hope

I wrote the blog post, “Hope in Houston,” a couple of weeks ago while I was getting chemotherapy at the hospital.  I was by myself that day since I was feeling good and it was a short appointment.  When the…
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What Story Do I Want to Tell?

“Daddy, when you were little did you have a house?” “No, Emmy, when we were little we didn’t have a house.  We had to sleep outside…and we liked it!  Emmy, when you were little did you have toys?” “We didn’t…
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Hope in Houston

We’re definitely not in Kentucky anymore, Bubba.  There is no fall weather, at least not that we can tell yet.  No leaves changing color.  No die-hard Cats fans talking about how they can’t wait for basketball season to start. There…
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I am Mutant #56

Have you ever had one of those days when you wonder why you ever doubted God’s presence in your life?  Well, we did yesterday.  After weeks of uncertainty, everything fell in place. We left the hotel about 11 am.  The…
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What Might Have Been

I wasn’t born in Texas, but I got here as fast as I could.  In our case, that was two days.  Friday came last week and we still did not have insurance approval, but we decided to step out on…
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Holding Patterns

We have been waiting now for nearly a week to receive approval from my insurance to continue treatment at MD Anderson.  The hospital will not schedule an appointment until they receive insurance approval, so we continue to be in a…
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Choices

“Everyone here was really disappointed by the news.” That’s what my hematologist said after discussing treatment options with us since the leukemia has relapsed. He genuinely meant it, and I appreciated it. I could have made a sarcastic remark, but…
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My Afflictions are Eclipsed by Glory

The cancer is back. We got the results of last week’s bone marrow biopsy yesterday on the eve of my admission to begin the transplant. It’s been a rough twenty-four hours. We have experienced a flood of emotions, but have…
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